| hmm...yesterday was the day we talked....and i guess it didn't went too well. i know what you mean...and i will let you go. don't worry. i don't wanaa force you or begg you to come bak....thats not the point. i rather be single if you come bak for pityness. i wont bother you anymore....you can do w.e you like now.....i know i will miss you but then that doesn't matter anymore...its gonna be inside my heart. IF you come bak..you come back....if not..thats fine. i'm not gonna do anything anymore....its time for me to break though and be the old me ones again. |
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| yesterday went to a old frd's birthday party. it was pretty fun ; went to a japanese place for dinner in richmond call embisu. the food was alrite but pretty expensive. left at 10 ish cause they had to leave early for clubing. i don't knowwhy but i really like the feeling of driving at night listening to music. it makes me think about alot of memories...memories that i can never forget in life...with you. Today as usual had work. woke up around 9 cause i can't sleep. i couldn't sleep well anymore....too much to think and worried about i guess....then i had work at 2...got off around 7...i was driving home and i though about you...so i called...but i guess you're busy....but you realli did sounds like u're FU heen gun me at that moment. but its ok...i understand. i'm already happy that i can hear your voice for ones in 2 weeks....but honestly....i really wanna know what you're thinking inside your brain....but i know you wont be able to answer that question.....cause you might not know how to answer it yourself~~ |
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| today was ones again sunny...but my heart is still grey. today was a pianful day for me...went to the dentise and got one of my wisdom tooth pulled off. it was pretty painful. right now at this moment...i still have alot of pain and still bleeding. next week i still have to go ones more for another wisdom tooth...><....ouch. but its ok...compare the pain of pulling wisdom tooth and my heart pain.....wisdom tooth pain is nth...i guess its ok....i will recover....someday....one day. i miss you... |
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| what a nice day today...its sunny. finally took a break from work....2 days off....wed and thurs. Didn't do much today..its more like a rest day for me . i think i'm slowly getting better now..didn't think as much...cause my thinking is over. i know what to do now....BUT deep inside my heart...i know i will always miss you . |
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| One week already...nth much happen today...just work and work. i guess working is not bad cause there's no chance for you to think stuff. i don't know why but i think i got stronger and braver. i learn how to deal with things properly. learn to let things flow...but i know one thing for sure ; wait for you . |
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